I was a girl filled with positivity. I appreciate the beauty of life, the humming of the bird, the glow of the sun as it shines in the morning. The rain that drops and give life to every flower as it quench for water.
As every day I open my eyes, hope and smile is always attached in me.
I never thought that the pain in my past will give me so many fulfillments in life especially when I met HIM.
I have loved a person whom I taught who can give me the star. A star that indeed a thousand miles and yet still I can see its beauty as it sparks in my eyes.
But the star that I’m dreaming for is a fallen star, a dead star. As I watch it falling in the sky, a fire burst in my heart.
I remember the days, you’ve said that only death can make as apart. And when the time comes that you’ll leave me soon, you said that you will be my star. You promised to watch me and will never leave me. You said that when I’m sad all I have to do is to look up and search for the brightest star, because that brightest star is YOU.
I asked you, why are you saying those kinds of words? We will be together forever, as I held your hand, watched you in your eyes, gave you a sweet kiss and smiled at you. I whisper to your ears and said “I want to grow old with you”. You smiled back at me, and then only silence is your answer to my question.
I never thought that will be our last day together, if only I knew that your experiencing so much pain because of your sickness, I will offer my life just to save you. I will give you my last breathe because YOUR LIFE IS MY LIFE. But still you wish not to tell it, because you said that you don’t want to see me crying. You said you can bear the pain of your sickness but whenever you see me crying it doubled the pain. I hugged you so tight. I said that if you will leave me, I don’t know if I can still live my life. I don’t know if I can still keep the positivity in me. I don’t know if I can still wear smile in my face. Because you are my life and if you’ll die better take my life too.
That day, you’ve gone forever. I searched for you, I shouted your name. I wanted you back…please come back to me. I can hear only silence. I cried; shed so many tears, longing for you…
Subject: My falling star 
Sat Dec 11, 2010 5:22 pm
